when i look back…

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© photo by michelle bryant

i remember

when i look back on my life…

i remember…

a mother attempting to stop living, to stop giving, but…

You were there.

i remember…

the betrayal of childhood innocence from a father but…

through the abuse, the demons that haunted mi
You were there.

i remember…

unconsciousness and a car skidding,
over four lanes of oncoming traffic but…

in the hospital, holding my hand, i looked up and i knew
You were there.

i remember…

a marriage of mile high walls and disillusioned dreams,
a loss of life with no heartbeat in the womb,
the endless prayers for a spouse and his soul tainted by idols, but…

through the years, through the tears,
You were there.

when i take a look back,
i remember…

a promised miracle of newborn life granted
although tempted by near death (twice),
there’s living proof now, that…

You were there.

i remember…

immense hurt from churches, from pastors,
a baby taken from her home,
through the endless days, the sleepless nights, the pain,
unforgiveness and distrust, through constant tears and trembling fears,
i knew that…

You were there.

i remember…

many broken hearts and tattered dreams, blurred vision and distorted sight but…

when i look back on my life,
(even though my memory now is sometimes cloudy)
and i make note of all the places i felt i lost control…

i see you!

and You, were always there!

© michelle bryant

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